okay, staying online has helped calmed me down from the previous post, cause talking to my friends made me realise so many of my darlings have always been there for me. so i'm deleting that post and instead of fussing and getting upset, i'm going to re-channel that energy to loving these guys more.

and i don't want to put a msn nick too depressing cause when i do, people come asking if i'm alright. their concern makes me feel so loved but at the same time, i feel guilty for making them worry but not telling them the problem cause it's too long a story and it's too difficult for me to explain myself.

i'm still a little confused so i think i'll just take one step at a time and see how things go.

but i still love all my friends, even though we might have made each other sad some time or another through our friendship.

smile, daphne. (: and do smile more too, my friends. (stef especially! you've been sounding real sad in your posts but do know old friends aren't for nothing and i'm always here alright?)

but still. the irony of it all.