why.

meow: I KNOW WHO YOU ARE HAHA! it was kind of hard because everyone meows at me, but you were my first guess and i was right! (: i like seeing meow around school. :D

stef: <3>

i haven't blogged in half a month, and sadly i don't have much to say because life has been dull.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to dennetaddictionbabe, who turned eighteen on 8th april! i'm so sorry we didn't get the chance to go meet you on your birthday! it was ORA as well, so i'd have loved to go down but there was some enterprise day thing in the morning. anyway you'll get your present when we next see you babe. LOVE! <3>

and happy birthday to vonn too! hope you liked the present and cake and that you had a good day! life in 06 wouldn't be the same without you. (:

mardi gras was on thursday night. it was quite happening! i seriously didn't know that SO many people would come back at night for a school event. a pity our class didn't do anything special, though. but ah, i would say it was a success. (:

but what made me even happier was meeting darlingSTEF for an early dinner before mardi gras. and she treated me to crystal jade xiaolongbao hohoho. i love the way we can hop from topic to topic, and yet not sense awkwardness in the air if we both remain quiet. seeing her was the happiest thing that happened to me in the past few weeks. :D I LOVE STEF. :D

but really, as we talked, we realised we don't enjoy jc that much anymore. last year was funfunfun, everything was nice and happy. but now.. i don't know. a few laughs here and there everyday, but on the whole, life's been monotonous, and i'm not enjoying it at all. everyone suddenly seems so distant, it feels like i don't know them anymore. and it's making questions pop out all over my head. ):

it would be nice if i could go back in time. back to last year. or to the three months in rj. better still, back to rgs. NICE. (:

sometimes i wonder if life's now really less fun than before, or is it only because i subconsciously make comparisons? what if i went through life the other way around, like going through tj before rgs. would i then be droning on about rgs?

maybe the past five years or so just set too high a standard, and this year kind of pales in comparison.

maybe i shouldn't compare.

i don't like life now. ): WHY.

i don't know what to expect anymore.