insufficient memory X)

saturday was a good day because i met up with stef and chel for dinner! pepperlunch woohoo. from our little convo over dinner we realised that stef is highly out-of-touch with rj sports competitions. and though i was bursting already those two pigs forced me to get a donut with them. it was yummy, but ah, even if it's good food, you do not derive maximum satisfaction from eating it when you're full, says stef. (: we just hung around at kinokuniya and gushed/laughed over cute japanese stationary. OMG i am super tempted to get the miniature version of my pencil cause it's super cute nice and it isn't more expensive than normal pencils. then again, i don't need a new pencil. hm. it was so much fun laughing over notebooks with rabbit-cum-pig-looking-cats and confused penguins. at least the sheep looked normal, but instead of 'sheep', it was labelled as 'wool' instead. wonderful. (: in the end stef bought a black 'insufficient memory' notebook [NICE.] and a sheep one. and chel was totally going crazy over this series of books with nice covers but the main point is she was really really mad! do ask stef. i haven't seen her gushing over books in this way before hahaha. when you have enjoyable company, anywhere can be a good place to hang out, even a bookstore. :D i hereby proclaim I LOVE STEF AND CHEL. <3

went to support basketball yesterday and i'm sad cause they lost. ): could tell that they were all so disappointed, and it's quite low, especially when i know so many of them. msged the guys and don was saying something about sorry for disappointing us. brother, we aren't disappointed cause we know you all tried your best! sad about it, yeah, but not disappointed with your team at all, okay. so they'll play vjc for 3rd/4th placing tomorrow. still don't know if we're going to support, cause there's volleyball finals too. no matter, just go for it guys! we're behind you all man.

bused home with yandeng and his friend today and took a really long route! first we took 229, then 25 to hougang and then 80. o_O because that guy is basking in the fact that he has so much time now that there isn't CO anymore. hahaha kidding lah brother! we are goondus cause it suddenly rained heavily just as we got off 25, so we had to share an umbrella as we walked to the 80 bus stop and then when we reached the bus stop it stopped raining. HELLO! treating us as fools is it! but yeah it was a nice long talk man, friend!

bit by bit, i realised i'm getting less affected. i won't waste the energy to bother anymore; it isn't worth it. it's a pity, but there's almost nothing i can do anymore. i'm tired of the hypocrisy involved, how everything's changed with the blink of an eye, how hard i've tried to revert things back. and suddenly i don't know if the trust's still there. it's sad, yes, but what more can i do, especially if you seem to prefer it this way? i don't know what to do already.

sometimes i feel so.. taken advantage of. recently, i've been wondering why everything seems to be so different these days. some days i feel excluded. unimportant. unwanted. as if deep down people actually wished i weren't there, and that i am actually of little significance. it feels like i've been giving and giving and all i get in return are half-hearted friendships. why has the situation taken such a turn. i want to give up and just heck care but i'm afraid.

at times like these, i really really wish i could turn time backwards; not too far back, just a few months would be sufficient. wouldn't complain if it were a few years, though.

gosh, i sound like i'm sinking into depression.