Monday, February 26, 2007
i need my luck back!
oh wow, daphne's blogging! the moon must be blue tonight!
the past few weeks have been really good, everything's been going smoothly. which makes me happy because as much as i don't really believe how EVERYONE of a certain zodiac sign will have a good/bad year, it's always nice to have a good start to a (in this case, lunar) new year, isn't it. and i THINK it's supposedly going to be a good year for us dragons, so hooray!
cny was.. just like any other year's. much time spent at my grandmother's house, which, in fact, is what we do every sunday evening so nothing very special there. oh, and there was the gambling, from which i made a net profit of A DOLLAR PLUS. haha i admit i'm very stingy when it comes to gambling, i usually bet ten cents each time, even my secondary one cousins place higher stakes than me. my mom need not worry too much that singapore's going to have integrated resorts.
then there was the visiting part. actually, we just went to my grandmother's house on all three days and all my cousins gathered there, and family friends and relatives visited throughout the days. someone said i looked japanese.. and my aunt agreed. o_O since when did i look japanese?
i finally met up with val, junqi, ziyu, ruide, marc and ced for dinner last saturday! such a pity that tong and vonn couldn't make it and don's still in taiwan. the poor guys probably got bored while we were in m)phosis (50% to 70% sale storewide!) so they left first. i feel so guilty about that omg.
oh as to why it has been a good year so far:
1) i won money at gambling! (yes it's only a dollar plus but it's still an overall WIN okay.)
2) i didn't make any blunders or embarrass myself during cny.
3) everything's been good, nothing bad or dreadful has happened, and that's enough for me.
AND.
my original contract at ocbc was supposed to end on 9th february, but it got extended til 6th march because there was supposed to be a new project to be implemented. then, last thursday, luke came to tell me that the project had been cancelled, so he asked if i wanted to work at ocbc centre south, where he works. basically it's the same place, just that it's a different tower, but they're all inter-linked. it'll probably be until june or july. so, it's kind of a blessing in disguise, cause if the project was implemented i'd probably have gotten extended for another month or two, but now that it isn't, i might get extended for another four months. for now, i just hopehopeHOPE that they haven't found someone new already.
results will be out on friday. i don't know what to expect, and i'm very scared.
things have been going so smoothly that i'm afraid my luck will run out soon. i know i'm just being paranoid as usual and too pessimistic for my own good but i can't help it! i'm prepared for the luck to run out, i'm just afraid that it'll run out before friday comes/ on friday. i'm so worried leh. and whoever tells me i don't have to worry, i will bug you with my old grandmother story of my o level results.
today wasn't very good. i don't know if my luck's really running out or if i'm just paranoid! i hope tomorrow will be a better day. aiyah this results shit is bugging me. ):
Friday, February 02, 2007
hooray, it's FRIDAY!
i think i'm kind of enjoying my life right now.
work might be a bit boring as there's nothing much to do for now, i may not have watched much television or ANY movies lately, i don't know yet if i'll get an extension at ocbc and there's something that's annoying me but other than that, everything is nice and good. i feel comfortable and at ease with my colleagues, i enjoy a nice and friendly working environment, amusing little things happen everyday, i can email gen at work, i get to meet up with people for lunch because so many people are working at raffles place, i meet up with people for dinner and during weekends, i'm earning money, and on the whole i assess my emotions and i think i've been feeling very happy.
there are, however, a few things that are constantly on my mind and nagging at me:
1) whether i'll get an extension or do i have to look for a new job
2) my phone bill for the month
3) A level results
point one isn't that bad, especially after today, when i asked farah (my supervisor) if they were going to extend me and she said she doesn't know for sure yet because the meeting's on wednesday but if they need to hire someone she'd push for an extension for me. (: moreover, damon (the guy from the job agency) has given me a job offer of being his part-time maid for
my phone bill is OMG i daren't look at the bill. i think the sms count is going to be sky-high for this month man. everyday, i sms on where/when to eat, sometimes more than one person, whether i'm there already, then work ends my mom smses me to ask if i want to meet her, plus all the random smses throughout the day, gosh i think my sms count might reach six hundred this month. i am SO screwed. at this point, i know people like ruide will nag at me to change my plan. of course i want to, but i haven't seen a phone which i want to upgrade with the plan. if i extend/upgrade the plan without changing my phone now, i'd have to wait another twenty-one months before i can change it. that's almost two years with a lousy-pok phone, no joke, okay. it doesn't even have bluetooth! (yes shara, laugh your heart out. ): )
the third point, ah, i don't know. i really, seriously, daren't go back to get results. TOUCH WOOD TOUCH WOOD but the scene of O levels results day keeps replaying in my mind, just that now it's morphed into the scene of the A levels results day. i'm paranoid i know, i keep imagining the worst, but it's not like i want to you know. some people keep going "AIYAH you can do it one la!", "you'll get three As!", "you'll do fine, your prelims were good!" and what not, but they don't understand. two years ago, that was what everyone was telling me too. i went to school happily, with high hopes, and i cried real hard after that. joan was saying she doesn't understand why people cry over results. it's not something i choose to do, it's just an emotion i can't hold back. when i do, it's more of a omg-what-can-i-do-with-this-kind-of-results cry rather than just a simple oh-lousy-results cry. there's a difference. as i was telling her, i wouldn't have cried if i'd gotten eight points at the O levels because i guess i would have made it back to rj. but nine was so unsafe and i cried so hard because i was at a loss. i guess i can see why most people don't understand, though, so i'll just leave it as that la.
i like my colleagues. the department's been quieter than usual these past three days because jimmy (the boss) and edmund have gone on a business trip. teng joon (the new permanent guy who joined on the same day as me) told me to take a two-hour lunch break HAHA. but i didn't of course! and today at 5.57pm,
tengjoon: "eh you haven't left?"
me: "it's not six yet la."
tj: "mm. i think the company's clock is behind time."
me: "HAHAHA I THINK SO TOO."
tj: *calls 1711 for the time*
tj: "eh. no, they said it's 5.57pm." -.-
HAHAHA he seriously went to call to check the time i thought it was damn funny! everyone was light-hearted cause it's a FRIDAY, yo. :D
met luke today cause he came by the 25th floor. luke's the guy who interviewed me for the job. i was asking him to extend me and he said they were looking for a temp for a position on the 14th floor, but the view wasn't very good. after ten seconds i realised he was talking about the view out of the window and i was like WHAT ON EARTH i don't even look out of the window! i asked him if his department needed someone to make coffee, he said no, that's his job, and he refused to give it to me! ): then he called his colleague over and told her to consider "this girl this girl" for the 14th floor position, but that i complained about the lousy view. what rubbish i don't even care about the view hahaha! and he went, "see la, this one whole day like to argue." ): so horrid.
if i don't get an extension, next week will be my last week at ocbc, but it doesn't feel like it. somehow, i don't feel like i'm ready to or about to leave, but if i have to i'll definitely miss the people there. it's going to be eugene's (the intern) last week there too, and from what i gathered, if i have to leave, i won't get to see edmund again because i think his business trip was suddenly extended til the 10th or something. which is quite sad, didn't say bye properly.
met stef for dinner last night and WHEEE I LOVE STEF. <3 even though she hates me and made me wait for an hour. ): dinnered at ichiban boshi and spent QUALITY TIME TOGETHER. :D we're going shopping together tomorrow!
jiemeis are back from bangkok! i miss them LOADS man. ):
i want the big group photos from biyi's + ruide's birthday dinnerrrrr.
what a long entry this is.