class photos uploaded!

omg. i'm so pissed i typed a considerably long paragraph and i just somehow managed to delete the whole thing. i'm a genius.

wei: hey, i slept at 4am the previous night la! (no i wasn't studying, i was uploading photos.) and the previous two nights before that i slept five-and-a-half hours in total. that's not a lot okay!

i'm not updating as frequently as i'm supposed to. ): how to, when prelims are just around the corner and i'm so tempted to watch my taped-but-unwatched shows!

so i've been studying until around 1am, when my mind's too tired to absorb any more stuff, then i go watch my shows. last night i watched last saturday's episode of a love to kill. now i can understand why people like RAIN! and i really really want to watch full house but i didn't know they were showing it on SCV and there's prelims to study for so i shall watch it after As (too far away) prelims! heehee.

on friday the j2s celebrated teachers' day in advance and it was FUN. well our class bought a cake and invited all the teachers during break, and later in class we just went crazy taking photos. like this:

HAHA look at ced!

CLASS NERDS (:

vonn is violent.

jiayi my ELDER sis bought me flowers! :D

on monday (for some reason) i took out the christmas cards which i received over the past two years and it made me feel so loved! i couldn't stop smiling at all those messages from everyone and some were so touching i teared! very sweet. (: and i don't know why but i missed amanda a lot that day.

this week has been quite unusual - i've been studying with different people everyday! adeline on saturday, rachel and clarissa on sunday, melissa and xiaoshan before gp on monday, dennet yesterday, jiayi tomorrow and dennet and joan on friday (when we go watch the devil wears prada!). so sorry rachel, clarissa and don for not being able to go study today, especially don cause i haven't been free the past 9283479 times he asked. :X

have dental later, i'm sad cause it's raining and i want to wear my birkenstocks cause it's comfy yet presentable enough to go to orchard (where my dental clinic is). okay the rain's reduced to a drizzle, it has twenty minutes to stop completely.

i haven't been very productive, and i'm very irritated with myself! more annoying, i can't wake up every morning! i set my alarm for 7am on monday and yesterday and i woke up at 9am on both days. last night i set my alarm for 8am and i woke up at 10am this morning. what's this! i should try setting my alarm for 5am tomorrow. then again, it isn't surprising since i've been going to bed at around 3.30am, but that's when i finish watching my shows what!

oh oh main point of this post: CLASS PHOTOS UPLOADED! those from march until those we took on friday. (snapshots drop-down box, 0605 album three.) have fun!

and STUDY HARD, people. don't be like me.

(darn, the rain just got heavier.)

emo!

today in school ruide kept insisting i cried yesterday and i was like HUH, and finally i realised he was talking about during click. -.- but it was really very touching! adam sandler could go forward in time with this universal remote control and he fast forwarded stuff like quarrels and waiting time before his promotion and he found himself years ahead in time. but he realised he'd missed out on his children's growing-up years, his wife had divorced him and his dad had died. then he rewound to the last time he saw his dad, and he realised how he'd ignored his dad and couldn't even be bothered to spend time with him. then the him watching the memory wanted so much to tell his dad how much he really loved him but his dad couldn't hear him, of course. goodness, i just couldn't control my tears then. and it made me think of my dad, and how things would be like if he were still around. ):

another touching scene was when he ran out of the hospital, after his son, just to tell him that his family should still be more important than his career. then he just fell on the road and as he was dying and his family was surrounding him, it was just so touching. and when he told his daughter, "i might not live two hundred years, but i will always love you." or something to that extent, it was super sad. i think the show sent the message that we shouldn't just aim for materialistic goals like job promotions, cause at the end of it all it might not be what you want at all. and by the time you realise it, it might be too late, cause you might have lost all that matters already. really, family, friends and happiness matters more than anything else. and that is very in line with what i believe too.

did you guys watch singapore idol? i thought jonathan's rendition of dance with my father was very touching, even though it didn't get very good comments. the song's written by this guy in memory of his late father and how he wishes for his mom the chance to dance with his father again, just like when he was alive, even if it were for just one more time. here are the lyrics:

Dance With My Father

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said

Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how mama cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

my sis and i thought we could feel the emotion when jon sang it. we were listening to the words and they were just so touching and sincere! or maybe, like my sis said, maybe it because we can relate to the lyrics. like how sometimes we miss our dad and wish he were here with us.

okay enough enough! that last part almost made me tear while i typed it. o_O as biyi says, "don't be emo, nemo!" (: just try listening to the song and focusing on the lyrics, maybe you'll get what i mean.

on a brighter note, my class, at present, has around NINETEEN people going for graduation night! we are the coolest class ever. i hope we get all get a room together or something. (:

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! (:

hohum! (: hey i don't know why but for some reason that reminds me of sharon!

national day came and went. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! hahaha sorry couldn't resist. even though i know it sounds real uncool la okay, but i can't help it if deep down i really love my country right! seriously, no matter how much i procrastinate all year round, i love this place man. it's safe, relaxing, it's where my friends and family are. i've never wanted to study abroad, not even the slightest bit - i don't think i could ever survive in a foreign country alone, without my friends and family, without anyone to turn to! which, in a way, is a good thing since studying abroad sounds really expensive and i probably won't qualify for any scholarship. hee. seriously, even when i go on holidays, i get homesick on the first day. how odd is that! i like familiarity; i don't like being in strange foreign surroundings cause it makes me insecure.

i was talking to biyi online yesterday and i was saying i'm so patriotic, they should totally groom me to be the next president, and she pinkie sweared that she'd vote for me! would you? :D anyway i promised i'd make her a minister, post of her choice. hohoho vote for me to be a minister too! okay kidding that's corruption to its max haha.

i'm so glad for joan, for without her, i think i'd have burst with all that build-up of emotions in me! JOANIE I LOVE YOU. <3 ranted enough, gotten over everything already.

watched click today with dennet and joan! surprisingly, it was touching. i cried. ):

okay am off now! toodles!

it's getting to me!

i know i haven't updated in the longest time, i hope you pardon me! (if anyone still comes here, that is.) i was in the bus just now and i suddenly had the urge to blog, hahaha yeah finally, after more than a month.

just a brief update on what i've been up to in the past few months:

+ during the last two weeks of the june holidays, chel and i went to rj to study almost daily, and we usually sat with dennet and her friends. i like studying there cause the tables are huge, i don't have to spend a lot, i get to see ZHUNIAN A LOT, their friends are really really funny, amusing and nice (like buying dinner for us!), i can sit like a kopitiam kid and lie on the long benches when i'm sleepy, it's not warm at all, i can wear comfy clothes (baggy tees and fbts!), we can study until ten (or later, if you want) at night, i managed to meet loads of friends i wouldn't have met up with otherwise, and best of all, i feel so comfortable and at home there! don't get me wrong, i love tj, but i love rj too man.

+ i've been meeting up quite a bit with people like chel and stef, who i used to meet only once in two months or something. but now, i'm meeting them a lot, and i'm not complaining! :D <3

+ there have been the birthday celebrations, as usual. quite a number, in fact.

+ movies! like cars, she's the man, etc.

+ world cup finals, which val, tong, ruide, don, marc, ced and i watched at vonn's house. it was nice staying up and watching together and going to school together all sleepy the next day.

+ the special stuff in tj, like wear-your-jersey-day in line with the world cup, and pets' day! marc's dog is oh-so-cute okay. and clean, too. the doggies were all very cute. (: i like. i was junqi's pet lion heehee.

singapore idol has been the 'hot' topic in my house for the past month or so, only cause jon leong's mom is my mom's colleague and my whole family knows her la cause my mom's been working there for like almost twenty years and my sis and i always go to their office. and i went to watch the live show with vonn, ziyu and two of ziyu's friends. it was a nice experience, i think it's better when you hear them sing live. mm. so yeah now everyday my mom goes jon this and jon that.. i hope she still remembers i'm her daughter, not him hahaha! kidding, but at least he's worth supporting anyway.

i got my birthday present from stef, chel, addie, joy, etc! (haha finally!) it's that lovely squishy RED ADIDAS JACKET heehee! i loveee it to bits, as much as i love you guys! thank you. (:

celebrated adeline's birthday on saturday with zhunwei, zhunrui and reuben. watched the lake house! that's a show i've been looking forward to ever since i saw its trailer in may or something. it was a sweet show, and i like sweet shows. (: addie treated us to delifrance dinner, and after that the rest left and we went for coffee. happy birthday darling, i hope you liked the present!

life these days all about studying and it's irritating me to pieces, to the extent of making me grouchy. much apologies to those who have been at the receiving end of my grouchiness and beared the brunt of it, especially ruide whom i think i stunned yesterday. sorry for snapping, my friend.

sometimes i feel rather taken for granted. i don't expect anything in return for things i do, and i do them cause i really want to and i like to see people happy, but i just ask that people don't take me for granted, you know. is that very hard!

i had thought of other things to write whilst i was in the bus but i can't remember already.

i shouldn't be here. i have an fmath test tomorrow. and singapore idol's started already!

a rather funny yet meaningful and encouraging quote:

"when the going gets tough, the tough get going!"

i'm off now, world. (: